Honestly what the hell do we see in them? For the life of me i cant understand it!
I don't blog often, only when i really need to bitch or moan.
I'm pissed off!!
I've had a shit day!
It was so beautiful outside here in Dunedin and i was stuck the fucking basement of what you call the lower level of the Meridian mall! People were inside on the first day of proper sun and heat!!
Why?!
why do people shop on a sunday?! why do i work sunday?
i was so close to closing the shop and just going outside to bask in the golden gloriousness! but no i had losers who CHOSE to come inside!! Why? WHY?!
so that annoyed the hell out of me, i know i couldnt have changed anything about it but still ya know? i was annoyed and continue to be.
And now i have found out that my road tripping buddy to Auckland has just backed out!
It's total shit.
I will be honest and say its my ex. This was going to be my last goodbye (not in a dodgy way), but this was gonna be a cool way to just hang and spend some time together before we move on with our lives and away from each other. Does it sound stupid?
I gave him plenty of opportunities to back out but he said it would be fine every time and i got a text while i was at work today saying he doesnt think he can afford to come!!
Which is fair but the only thing he would have had to have paid for was half the petrol, food and a flight home!! One way tickets aren't exactly expensive these days!
But it pissed me off so much
im more dissappointed and sad coz he's not coming but I'm just so irrationally angry about it! Like so angry i just want to scream at him! I think its coz it seems like he led me on, and let me believe it was set in concrete (which its not). I think im more angry at myself for not seeing this coming though. I know that he has a tendency for doing this kind of thing (just pulling out of things at the last minute), and they were never large things, was something like watching vids or something but its just so frustrating. Coz i was relying on him for something that i really shouldnt have.
What do you think?
No one actually reads this coz i never blog enough, but maybe if someone stumbles across it feels like commenting, please do?
ciao for now
3 comments:
You are allowed to be angry!!!
hey bebe
you're right, you were relying him for something that you shouldn't have. but we are all guilty of that - who wants to let love go, even when it's not great? It's still love.
Don't beat yourself up, after all, you are human.
Thanks guys :)
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