A pretty good day

Today was pretty cool actually. Nothing particularly exciting went down but it was just a good day.

I had a great big sleep in and when i woke up the sun was shining!!! Yay go the sun!

So i opened my curtains jumped straight out of bed, turned on some music, put a load of washing on, had a shower and got dressed. Then i even hung my washing out!! Its the first time in this part of the year that we have had decent weather to hang washing out!  It was great!

Oh and it was amazingly warm too.  So once all that was done, i hung out in my room with my window wide open, on the bed with a good book. The sun shines directly in onto my bed so it was pretty awesome.

I then had work which was cool. I hardly have a bad day at work, its more location than anything else. But Jono, my regional manager was there. We hardly get to see him as we are the furtherest store South.  Did that make sense?  But he is a really cool guy and i respect him heaps. he def does a lot for the complany and i'm pretty sure we would all be lost without him.  Anyway he is here coz we have to do stocktake which i love coz that means extra hours woop!!! Oh and from next week i think it is i will be working 3 weeks straight :S  

I love my job and all but that will be just plain nuts.  pretty sure i will be SUPER exhausted at the end of it.

i just think of the money that will be going towards my trip home and the holiday pay hours that i will be racking up!! It means a sweet pay off at the end of it all :)

Not really a lot to say (although i seemed to have managed a decent amount).

I think i will start leaving quotes at the end of  my blogs, i quite like quotes, they can be fun :)

So here goes my first one:  We are the hero of our own story.

Mary McCarthy 

Doesn't have much to do with my blog but i quite liked it

That's all for now

Blind with Love/Rage

Boys!!!

Honestly what the hell do we see in them?  For the life of me i cant understand it!

I don't blog often, only when i really need to bitch or moan.

I'm pissed off!!

I've had a shit day!

It was so beautiful outside here in Dunedin and i was stuck the fucking basement of what you call the lower level of the Meridian mall!   People were inside on the first day of proper sun and heat!!

Why?!

why do people shop on a sunday?! why do i work sunday?

i was so close to closing the shop and just going outside to bask in the golden gloriousness! but no i had losers who CHOSE to come inside!! Why?  WHY?!

so that annoyed the hell out of me, i know i couldnt have changed anything about it but still ya know? i was annoyed and continue to be.

And now i have found out that my road tripping buddy to Auckland has just backed out!

It's total shit.

I will be honest and say its my ex. This was going to be my last goodbye (not in a dodgy way), but this was gonna be a cool way to just hang and spend some time together before we move on with our lives and away from each other.  Does it sound stupid?

I gave him plenty of opportunities to back out but he said it would be fine every time and i got a text while i was at work today saying he doesnt think he can afford to come!!

Which is fair but the only thing he would have had to have paid for was half the petrol, food and a flight home!!  One way tickets aren't exactly expensive these days!

But it pissed me off so much

im more dissappointed and sad coz he's not coming but I'm just so irrationally angry about it!  Like so angry i just want to scream at him!  I think its coz it seems like he led me on, and let me believe it was set in concrete (which its not).  I think im more angry at myself for not seeing this coming though.  I know that he has a tendency for doing this kind of thing (just pulling out of things at the last minute), and they were never large things, was something like watching vids or something but its just so frustrating. Coz i was relying on him for something that i really shouldnt have.

What do you think?

No one actually reads this coz i never blog enough, but maybe if someone stumbles across it feels like commenting, please do?

ciao for now

Man am I slack or what?!

Hello all of my non readers :)

Hope all is well in the land of where you are.

I really should write to this thing more as i really do think no one even knows it exists lol.
I should just let EVERYTHING out, but I won't.

So what has happened in my land?
I am a single gal now, leading a rather boring life...
I am moving back to Auckland!!! Yay
I'm quite excited about that one actually! I want to get one of those flash apartments in the city hahaha. Not quite sure how succesful that bid will be but who knows?!
I am not going until the end of October i think. Round about then anyway
Too many parties and things are being planned for October for me to leave any sooner lol.
Why am i moving back to Auckland you ask? Good question!! Well to be honest the only thing that was keeping me down here was Jake and now that that is over there is kind of no need for me to suffer in the cold with no money!! You see my logic?
I know, i know, i shouldn't have let him keep me here but honestly how often do we get held back by the ones we love? More often that we would like to admit thats for sure!! So now i have no one and the world is my oyster!!
I was planning on going to FLorida for a working holiday but it was a really rash decision and plus i need to get my finances sorted better than what they are now and maybe do some saving etc etc. But all in all i am looking forward to going home.
I'm looking forward to the Drive home actually. I asked Jake to come on the road trip with me and he said yes so that should be cool. I know its a bit late but he can finally meet all the really important people in my life. I'm not looking forward to the goodbye part. That is going to be UBER UBER hard. Pretty much like breaking up all over again i would say and that wasn't pretty the first time around lol.

Anyway this was just meant to be a quick post, kinda turned into more than that lol.
Meh

Hope all is well :D

xo

Cold!!

So its fucking cold down here
today we had a huge high of 5!!
was a beautiful day but it was rather chilly

i dont really have much to say other than i have no money and i need to either find a second job (which is more preferable to me) or find a whole new job altogether
and thats not cool coz my job is awesome and i love it and its not every day you find a beauty that makes you happy
its just my hours suck
well its more my lack of hours which is lack of money!!
and i love money
i will admit it, i think everyone does though

what i would love to do though, is to have more money but live within my means. you know what i mean?
You know how the more money you have, the more luxuriously you live, well i would like to live a little more luxuriously but not so i dont have any money to spare or nothing save at the end of the week.

also i wish bills could come at different times of the month!!
why does the phone and power bill come at the same time?!
why not have it so they come about 2 weeks apart so you are always kind of balanced out instead of having money one week and then none the next week?
i suppose i could always save some for the next week but seriously...what kind of world do you think i live in?

i really have a whole lot to say but nothing worth reading about

Thanks for reading and sorry for wasting your time :P

hope you enjoyed my rant

Ouch!

Pain is not my friend

Who ever said no pain no gain is full of shit!!
I have pain and im not gaining anything except maybe fat from a lack of sleep!
Does it work that way?
Well i dont care thats how i feel!!

I have a massive pain in my right shoulder and all the way down the right side of my back!
Lying down seems to aggravate it and i cant sleep on my right side coz it hurts too much and then if i do then i wake up in the middle of the night and have to wait about 5 minutes before i can move!!
WTF!!

but yes
that is my rant and im not happy.

It's my 21st soon too and no one that means a heck of a lot is going to be there it seems.
Well one person, maybe.

There wont be any speeches coz no one down here knows me well enough to give one and there wont be any cool 21st presents coz once again no one knows me and most will be students!

It will be a good but sad night in my books.
Nevermind

Need to get my woe is me over and done with

Ciao

Crap

What i wrote the other day is rediculous

I just read over it

My blogs are about crap, meant to be about my life but i obviously dont have one!!

oh well, one day haha

It's been a while

Ok so it has actually been 1 whole month since i have blogged
Gosh how rude of me!!

Anyway things have been uneventful for me like usual hence the no blogging.
Today i bought a whole heap of things
Pyjamas were on the list and they are quite funky i reckon
and i bought stationery (i am a little weird when it come to stationery, i love it!!)
I bought a scrapbook to draw muscles in, pencils to draw musles with and these flash metallic colouring pencils pretty much because they are metallic and pretty looking lol.

I have been intending on studying all night, well actually all day and i still have done NOTHING!!!
It really is a huge lack of discipline on my part, this online learning business is really not good for an expert procrastinator like myself!!
See i am even procrastinating right now sitting here writing to my blog!
Its rediculous!!

Another exciting thing is i sent away for my course related costs today. Now this is really not exciting in a normal every day persons life but for me its a highlight! Oh joy
Its exciting coz it means im close to getting a massage table and all the sorts that go with it!!
Yay!!
Jake is going to ask his aunty about whether or not she can get hold of a cheap one for me (in price that is). Hopefully she can coz otherwise those things are pricey!!
Yes i know it seems weird that i am actually going to use it for course related things, coz lets face it, how many people these days actually use it for what its meant to be used for?

Went to go and see Step Up 2 on Saturday but the fucker was sold out so we went to P.S I Love You instead and OMG what a fricken tear jerker!!
I cried about 5 times and i know i wasnt the only one in the theatre that was. But the thing is, It made me sad, like SUPER sad. It sounds stupid, but to me these things actually happen (movie stuff like proper romance and all that jazz), not to me obviously but somewhere out there, this stuff happens and it made me SO sad! I had the hugest, most wanting feeling of NEEDING Jake than i have ever had before about anyone.
And this sounds rediculous but all i wanted to do at the end of it and through it is tell him how much i love him and how much he means to me and i dont know what i would do without him. It was just the most overwhelming feeling i have ever had. I havent seen him since i have seen the movie and i have been horrible to him.
I was SO SO angry that he didnt come over at 10.30 at night to see me when he was already in bed and practically asleep. It was so unrational!!
I dont know what has gotten in to me. I think its coz i still havent seen him and these feelings are just floating around my body like a bad toxin until i see him and just stand there in his arms not wanting to let go.

This is weird to me, I mean i like hugs and i like to let people know how i feel about them but this is just so intense.
I feel like im nuts.

But anyway, i think i may go to sleep and study tomorrow when i finally have a desk!
I'm scoring one free from my flatmate, Its at his dads house and hes letting me have it
Woop Woop

Well tell me your thoughts on how crazy you think i am haha

Later yo

Woe is me

Today i am super super tired and feeling rather emo.
And i do mean Emo in the woe is me sense of the meaning.
nd i cant help it
It's Shit in fact.
If someone asks me whats wrong i will cry and theres no doubt about it.
I wish it wasnt the case but it just is.

thats all
I want to go home and for people to leave me alone
This wont happen til 6
Fuck it all

Hectic

That was my day!! It was SOOOOOOOO busy today.
All the students are coming back into town as O week started today
We had 167 paying customers today it was nuts.

We were busy non stop from about 12 til 3. We just didn't stop at all. I didnt even take lunch we were that busy!!

Im not complaining though coz if we are busy it means that people are spending money which means we make target which means we get a bonus at the end of the month which is always appreciated!!

Well im sitting at home contemplating going to the supermarket which i desperately need to do but cant be bothered doing. I feel like drinking a bottle of wine and watchign DVD's in bed.

Is that sad?
I think so,especially on a saturday night but i do have work tomorrow.
Whe i go out though i dont have to drink
im just one of those people. But i feel like drinking and if i do i may be hungover and work tomorrow will be the pits.

So yeah thats my really interesting life.

God im sad

Something new

So this is the start of something new.
I'm not a good writer or a very good story teller
i leave things out or put too much ina dn take far too long to actually get to the punchline so people are already bored and not interested or listening anyway.

My life is quite boring.
It's kinda sad but I'm happy with it for now. Things can always be improved.
I have a special someone in my life but i wont be talking about him much of at all.
This is about me haha.

...stuck for something to say right now
i told you im not very good at this sort of thing

I shall say a bit about me
I think that i am generally a good person. I think about others a lot.
I worry unnecessarily sometimes about stupid things and then not about the right things.
I'm terribly materialistic and i will admit it. I like to have things and although i dont have a lot its mine and im quite proud of it.
That's also another thing about me. I'm too proud and stubborn for my own good. I wont ask for help if i dont think i need it or am too embarassed to.
Although it doesn't seem so, I am a terribly happy person most of the time.
Sometimes over the top. I talk A LOT. And i find it hard to not be able to say anything on here.
I love being around people. Not so good by myself but i cope just the same.
I don't like to think of the bad things in the world so i suppose that makes me selfish.
I HATE the dirty rotten scoundrels who are cruel to animals. And the stupid jerks who say that whaling is for research. Like Fuck its for research!!

so yeah thats me.
Leave a comment if you so wish.
I may or may not post more blogs.
Although i talk alot i suppose i dont have much to say.
How sad

Love to all :)